This panic is different for everyone and can be triggered by a multitude of things. For me it is being stuck in the awkward middle ground of studying and therefore not having a full-time "proper" job, yet wanting to move out and be independent. It is also a weird feeling relating to my degree which is finishing up over the next year or two meaning I will be a fully fledged adult working on my career - which is a really scary thought. Lastly, it's a bit of melancholy surrounding the fact that ageing is actually a thing. It's true what they say about teenagers thinking they are invincible, because I have never found myself thinking about my own mortality as much as I have since realising that my life is actually moving in a forwards direction.
It is hard not to feel alone when no one else in your personal life is speaking up about this, but it is important to keep in mind that most of us are feeling the same things. I know a lot of people who miss high school incredibly and would give anything to go back, and while I don't feel that way, there are a lot of things in that realm that I want to hold onto yet seem to be slipping away at a rapid pace. When I finish studying it will be a relief in way, but is also the end of a very big part of my life. You know, one that I've been engaging in as far back as my memory goes.
I was really happy when I started watching the show 'GIRLS' and it deals with this topic perfectly. I would definitely recommend it to anyone feeling a little lost in their twenties. Lifestyles being funded by parents, careers not going as planned and people with degrees working as waitresses. It combines a whole lot of scary truths about life after university, but also portrays them in a funny way that makes you feel like they are common - which they are.
I would love to know if you are going through this and what exactly in your life is making you feel this way.
